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Either my mind or the gods hate me. As of now, 16 hours before I get to go home for spring break, I feel like shit. I'm roasting alive (despite the fact that the window is open some and the fan is on), I'm all ache-y and shake-y, my throat hurts and is all phlegm-y, and my head is pounding. I've done something to piss the gods off, or I'm one gigantic hypochondriac whose brain is out to get him. Josh left earlier today, so I have the room to myself. Since I don't have to worry about bothering him with loud music; I've been playing my iTunes library on shuffle sans headphones while I read. In just slightly more than 24 hours I managed to finish the second book in the Jedi Academy Trilogy. I also made a run to the comic book shop today to pick up New Avengers #50, Dark Avengers #2, and Ender's Shadow: Battle School #3. NA and DA were quite good. They both contained epic ass-fightscenes with a few interesting deaths (supposedly). I haven't goten to Shadow yet, but I will later on tonight. Anywho, I've determined that I can get a fairly restful sleep in about 2 hours if I play Blackmore's Night in the background. It felt like 2 or 3 hours had passed when I looked at the clock and realized it had only been 45 minutes. Josh took his tv home with him, so I have nothing to watch. Well, I'll probably watch more X-Men on the internet, but that's different. For now this lil jay is going to try to pull a GLaDOS and try to be Still Alive. G'night y'all. See ya eventually (possibly even sooner if you have some kind of break this week).

I'm Where?!? The Dorm And How Does That Make You Feel? crappy Auditory Accompaniment I'll Never Be - Reel Big Fish tags: bitchy, comics, sick, sleep

For shits and giggles I tried going to sleep early again tonight. I don't have anything going on tomorrow, so I'm free to experiment with sleep without penalty. I woke up around 1300 today (after falling asleep around 0630), and I haven't napped or anything today. I fell asleep around 2300, and woke up at almost exactly 0100. Woo! We've reduced the sleep from three down to two whole hours before I wake up. I tossed and turned until abut 0130 when I got up. Tonight I'm not even going to try to go back to sleep. I'm just going to stay up until either I can't anymore or until tomorrow night comes along and I have to sleep. Maybe that's what I need right now; a good all-nighter. I wish there were more places open 24 hours around here that I could go to with anyone who is still awake. That's one thing that I don't like about the area; there are no Eat n' Parks anywhere near here. We have Perkins. I'm not a fan of Perkins. It just doesn't have the kick ass-ness (xkcd rule in action) that the Park n' Eats do. Maybe I should be an owl instead of a blue jay. I pull an owl's hours, and I'm kinda wise. Just don't ask me how many licks it takes to get to the ccenter of a Tootsie-Pop. I'm not cool enough to eat one in one crunch. Heheh On another consumer related note; tomorrow is comic shop day! I get to pick up New Avengers #50, Dark Avengers #2, and Ender's Shadow: Battle School #3. I'm all kinds of excited!

Something different. I've noticed that when I'm up on campus I don't talk to nearly as many people as I do when I'm at home. Of my close friends: Addison, Joe, Graham, Tay, Kyle, Devon, Alex, and Nick I've recently spoken to: Kyleand Addison. The only real reason I've spoken to Alex and Nick was to make future plans, Tay is a different case because I go to college with her, I haven't talked to Graham or Joe since winter break, and the only times I've talked to Devon were when he's texted me first. I'm not sure why I lose contact with everyone so easily. I can explain Joe and Graham because they don't have texting, and they're never on AIM. Nick is the same way, but I used to call him every so often (more than now), and we'd talk about whatever. Devon has both AIM and texting, but I'm not sure why I haven't spoken to him in a while. I feel like I'm neglecting them all, but when I'm up on campus I get all kinds of anti-social. It's a douch-y thing for me to do, and I feel like an ass for not staying in touch with everybody especially because all I have to do is pick up the god damn phone. To anyone of y'all reading this I'm sorry for baing an un-attentive bastard.

I'm running out of shit to say, so I'm going to head out. My book is calling me. To those who can sleep I say G'night.

I'm Where?!? The Dorm And How Does That Make You Feel? awake Auditory Accompaniment All Because of You (radio edit) - Blackmore's Night tags: comics, communication, sleep

How is it that when I go to sleep early so I can be rested for the next day I end up waking up within a short period of time and am unable to get back to sleep? Case in point; last night I went to bed around 2330, and I woke up around 0230. I remained awake until around 0630 when I finally fell back to sleep. I tried to go back to sleep for about an hour then I gave up and began reading my book. By 0430 I had finished what was left of my book, and I tried to go back to sleep again. Not even half an hour later I said, "Fuck it." and started the next book in the trilogy I'm reading. I finally fell asleep around 0630. I don't get it. When I go to sleep around 0200 or so I wake up feeling kinda tired. When I try to go to sleep earlier I wake up within 3 hours, and I'm unable to fall back to sleep. What the hell, man? Then again, I haven't been sleeping well lately, so that might be a factor.

In other news, My conbadge I commissioned from Aubrin at AC '08 is nearing completion. I got a sketch from him earlier this week, and with my approval (which I gave (he does great work (hooray for parenthesis!))) it'll be complete soon. With that done all that's left is my commission from UndyingSong, but she's having some family problems so I'm not going to poke her about it for a bit. I also got Spazfox's new DVD titled Monolith of Ham, and it's damn funny. It's from his AC '07 show. I arrived late, so I only say the last half of it. This new DVD makes me feel just a bit more complete. I also got another copy of his first DVD titled Ow; since my other copy of the DVD I got was all screwed up. In a cruel twist of fate this DVD has the same problems that the last one did. I'm going to poke Spaz relatively soon to see what happens. I also had quite the awesomesauce weekend with Kyle, but I don't feel like writing any more right now. I'll post about it later. I'm done rambling. For now this lil jay is off to read his book some more and try to survive until the weekend. Spring Break Mutha Fucka!

I'm Where?!? The Dorm And How Does That Make You Feel? calm Auditory Accompaniment Blue, Dressed in Black - Eric Stuart tags: book, commission, movies, sleep

I usually have trouble getting to sleep when I'm supposed to. It's probably because when I don't have to wake up early I go to sleep around 0300, and all the naps I take during the day don't help much either. Last night was different. Last night I was, to put it simply, too afraid to go to sleep. The fear wasn't coming from the act of sleeping or what might happen while I was asleep. Instead the fear stemmed from life in general. Every so often self-doubt and paranoia creep in and make me think shit like I'm not good enough for college, I'm just wasting my time, I'm going to fail and get kicked out, and other bits of shit like that. You'd be amazed at what all goes through my mind when I least expect/want it. It was so bad last night I couldn't even try to sleep. I tossed, turned, and thought. I tried to go to sleep around 0030, and I finally fell asleep somewhere around 0645-0700. Even then I woke up a few times before my alarm went off at 0820. Needless to say I didn't go to classes today. I just couldn't. Last week I began to fall into my old habits and was beginning to get all despondent when my PreCalc teacher renewed my faith in me being here. I got an email from him wondering where I'd been for the past couple of days and asking if anything was wrong. No teacher since pre-school has bothered to care about that. That made me very happy. If you combine that with the awesomesauce weekend I had with my new DnD group it should equate better times ahead. If that's the case then why am I still paralyzed with doubt and fear? What the hell is wrong with me, and why haven't I been able to fix it yet?! Things seemed to be running so smoothly this semester as opposed to the last. If anyone has any ideas and/or could offer up some advice I'd really appreciate it.

I'm Where?!? The Dorm And How Does That Make You Feel? depressed Auditory Accompaniment Guilty Pleasure - Cobra Starship tags: doom, help, sleep

Today is off to an amazing start. I woke up at 1150, just in time to have my last class for the day end. Not even a week has gone by, and already I've missed a day's worth of classes. Things are turning out like last semester, and it hasn't even begun in earnest yet. According to my roommate: my alarm went off when it was supposed to at 0815, I turned it off and reset it, it went off again at 0930, I apparently turned it off after that, then my roommate's goes off at ten, and he makes a very loud crashing noise when he falls on the floor. I slept through everything. I woke up when he got back from his class at 1150. For some reason I woke up completely naked. I went to sleep with pants on, and I woke up naked. I was stripped, and I slept through 3 alarms and a lot of noise. I think I was date-raped (or I tossed and turned so much my pants wiggled off, and was a real heavy sleeper, but that's not as fun).

It's not all bad though. I just ordered a 500mL Earlenmyer flask, I'm getting Lewis Black tickets for when he comes to Erie in March tonight, I'm going to the mall with Josh tonight, and (best of all) my roo comes tomorrow. My gram used to say that if a day starts off bad it's bound to get better as the day goes on. One could hope. For now this little birdy is gonna chill with the tv. I'll see y'all eventually.

*begin shameless piming* Oh! One more thing before I go. I commissioned a pic from UndyingSong a bit ago, and it's done. Check it out. She did an amazing job. If you have some cash, and want an amazing pic go and commission her. For now check out my sexy www.furaffinity.net/view/1894523/ *end shameless pimping*

I'm Where?!? The Dorm And How Does That Make You Feel? blank tags: school, sleep

I don't know what it is about my dorm, but it makes me really tired. I got about 9 hours of sleep, ate breakfast, and haven't done anything exhausting today. Anytime I'm in the dorm I'm tired. I could be wide awake outside my door, and as soon as I step inside I'm tired. This happened a lot last semester too. I think the room is out to get me. It makes me tired just so I'll miss class. The room doesn't want me to be in college anymore. It's all one big conspiracy...or maybe I'm paranoid. That's one possibility.

I'm Where?!? The Dorm tags: sleep

Today didn't work out quite as well as I'd hoped. *entering whiny bitch mode* I was supposed to wake up around 1000 to get Joe and Amy for our trip up to the high school. I ended up waking up around 0830 because my phone was going off. It was Amy saying that she didn't feel good, and that I was no longer required to pick her up. After falling back to sleep, the phone woke me up again around 1000. This time it was Joe making sure I was up. As I was about to leave at 1030 the phone rang again. It was Joe saying he didn't feel well, and that I should wait an hour before coming to pick him up. I could've slept for another hour! *leaving whiny bitch mode* After getting Joe we trucked it up to the high school. Once we got there we stopped at the guard shack to check in, and this was where Joe forgot a crucial part of the original plan. Last year some former students wandered around the school on the pretense of a meeting. They told the guard that they had a reason to be there, and since it was a lunch period they weren't stopped from going from the halls because everyone was roaming around. Joe forgot that at first, and didn't remember until after the guard told us to go away. There went our main activity for the day.

After that I trucked it down to my gram's house because she had some cookies and cash for me to take up to college. When I got there she had just begun the cookies, so I was told to come back later. After that we trucked it to the bank where I deposited my check for books and by big bag of change. I had almost $30 ($29.3something). We then headed to Coconuts for their 50% off store's closing sale. I was hoping for Suburban Legends, but as usual they didn't exist. Instead I picked up Goldfinger's hello destiny.... Right next door to Coconuts ia Ya Fei, a Chineese restaurant. Remember that for later. We were both hungry, so we decided to go get some Chineese food. Joe said there was a place right next to the Italian Village Pizza on 60. I went there, and it didn't exist. We then just said fuck it, and I drove us back to Ya Fei, remembering as I made the right turn out of the parking lot that to the left and down two buildings was a Chineese place. Hooray for back tracking. The food was good, but Joe owes me $9.00, and I totally forgot that until after I dropped him off at home. The Chineese place had a rule that you had to spend at least $10.00 to put it on a card. My food was only $9.50, so I covered Joe's as well on the pretense that he'd pay me back. Dumbass me forgot that until much later. *facepalm*

I dropped Joe off then headed to Gram's to pick up the cookies. I got a metric fuck-ton! I also got $40.00. I headed back home to take a quick nap before getting to my laundry and packing. I fell asleep around 1700, and I just woke up around 2230. I'm going to be up all goddamn night trying to get ready to leave tomorrow. The world really doesn't want me to go back to college. I'm in a time crunch to get all my packing and laundry done, and it's sopposed to snow really bad tonight with freezing rain tomorrow. If I'm lucky, something on my car will die during the drive up, and I'll freeze to death. Well, this little birdy is off to work his tailfeathers off into the wee hours of the morning. G'night, and I'll see y'all eventually.

One last thing. Does this post seem poorly written to y;all? I'm not sure if I just see it that way because of my mood, or if it's actually written badly. Someone lemme know, please.

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? busy tags: school, sleep, work

I've spent the last month sleeping in until around 2pm-ish. Today I had to wake up at 1015. If the rest of the mornings are going to be like this one then I'm up shit creek without a paddle or a coprophagiac.

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? exhausted tags: sleep

    Today was boring as hell. Not much to post. I'm not going to work for just 2 hours. When I originally agreed to work the 2 hours Clarissa said, "Are you you want to come in for only 2 hours? Seems like a waste." At the time my motivation was money. Now it's sleep. I'm strangely tired right now, and I can't be buggered to go to work. I wasn't going to be much use in 2 hours anyway. At least that's how my brain rationalizes it. Good night y'all. This little bird is hitting the nest.

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? tired Auditory Accompaniment Sink Into the Underground - CKY tags: sleep, work

    Right now you should be reading about the awesome time I had at the zoo on Sunday. Well, you can't read about it because it didn't happen. The time was pushed back from 10:30am to 9:30am, and because of that I was unable to get a ride there. Ya see, my mom had a date that she was going to after she dropped me off at Kirsten's house. Since the time was moved back an hour, she claimed that she couldn't drive me up because she then wouldn't have enough time to shower. Normally, I would understand, but her date was to go walking with some guy. She would end up all sweaty and stanky anyway, so why bother cleaning yourself up just to get messy again? Because of that I am unable to tell you about the zoo, so instead I will tell you about Stang's Grad party which, I originally was unable to go to.

    At first, I was unable to go because my mom said that she would only drive me to the zoo or Stang's party, not both, so obviously, I chose the zoo so I could hang out with Kirsten. What seemed to slip my mind was that voco_letum was going, and he has a car. He also didn't know how to get there. Thus I then had a ride. We got there and hung out for a while. Shelly was there and I was glad to see her. I hadn't seen her in a while. There were a whole bunch of people there. There was Shelly, (who had to leave early because she had work in the morning) Stanley, Me, Voco, Chrissy, Chelsea, (who was only there for a little while) Paul, Ryan, Nick, and German. We spent most of the party playing Halo as usual.By the end of the party only Voco, myself, Nick, and Stan were left. We stayed up pretty late, (except for Voco) and did some co-op Gears of War/ Watch Sphere. After that we sacked out. The morning came and Stan, I, Nick, and Stang sat and bull-shitted about random things until we booted up Halo again. (Notice a theme here?) around 10:45 Nick and Stang left to go play airsoft leaving Stan, Voco, and I in Stang's house. Stan and I beat Gears of War then the 3 of us hung out down in the basement. We got hungry so we all went to Eat n' Park and grabbed some breakfast. When we arrived we found out it was Father's Day. We sat and ate, and Stanley paid. (I have to remember to pay him back)

    After that we parted ways and Voco and I headed back to my house. He played Oblivion while I went on the computer. At 10 that night the Star Wars Robot Chicken special came on, so we watched that. Afterwards, I got a hankering for some Guitar Hero II so I picked it up and began playing. Voco wanted to try so I gave him a crack at it. At first he sucked as hard as Kirsten did, but after a little while he got the hang of it. We went back and forth for a while then he played Oblivion and I went to sleep. (If you haven't figured it out already, he spent the night) I woke up to the sound of him playing Oblivion some more. He's been doing that all day and I've been off doing various things. I mowed the lawn, took out the trash, played some Star Wars Battlefront II, watched Smoking Aces, and took a nap.

    Tomorrow I have to mow Nick's gram's lawn, take a shower, and pick up some cash for Kennywood from my gram.

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? content Auditory Accompaniment Madness 6 - cheshyre tags: kirsten, party, sleep, weekend

    Wooooo! Today was so exciting! I don't think I've had more fun in one day than what I had today!

    I started out by waking up around 11:00am. I turned on Judge Joe Brown and went into the kitchen to make breakfast. I made a sandwich that consisted of buttered toast, Isley's Chipped Chopped Ham, bologna, and American cheese. After I finished eating I went downstairs and fed the cat. I watched more judge shoes until I got bored and put in Kingdom Hearts II. The last time I had played I got stuck on the last boss. Well, after months of not playing, I picked it up and beat the boss 1st time through. After that I went on the computer. I then went between sleeping and going on the computer. At 7:00pm my mom came home and I made Hamburger Helper. Then I watched CSI and ate. Now I'm back on the computer.

    On a slightly less exciting note, I found my old copy of Populous: The Beginning. I went to install it, and it turns out, it's too old for my computer. Oh well...

    Tomorrow should be better because I have to go to the store, and I'm applying for a job at a Rite Aid that's currently hiring. I hope I get this job; I need money to buy things.

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? bored Auditory Accompaniment Kicking Pigeons - Spunge tags: bordom, job hunting, sleep

    I guess gram was right...kinda. I was up for about an hour before I got bored and went back to sleep. I slept for 6 hours! What fun! I woke up around 2:00pm and just sat and watched T.V.  After about an hour I went up to the computer and I've been here since. Today is a really lazy day. The only thing I have to do is study for the Anat/Phys final some more. While today didn't get a whole lot better it has been pretty good so far.

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? lazy Auditory Accompaniment Village Lanterne - Blackmore's Night tags: bordom, lazy, sleep

    Today is starting off so well. *sarcasm* I woke up at 6:00am and, thinking it was Monday, began to panic because I woke up late. I then realized that I don't have to wake up until 6:30, so I went back to sleep. My alarm went off at 6:30, I got dressed, and went upstairs for lunch money. When I got to my mom's room for the money she told me that it was Sunday. *facepalm* Well, now I'm awake and it's 7:15 in the morning. I feel like an idiot. Well, my gram always used to say if the day starts off bad it can only get better. Lets hope she's right.

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? sleepy Auditory Accompaniment Series of Tubes Dance Remix - manish tags: school, sleep

    Well, I'm all rested up and ready to go. Today went pretty well. I woke up at 10:00am, which netted me 11 hours of sleep; I mowed Nick's Gram's lawn, which got me $20; Rieber took me up to Rochester, so I now know how to get there and what to expect; and my new book, Mistress of the Catacombs by David Drake, came in so I picked it up. I'd say today has been pretty eventful. Just to make sure I'm fine for tomorrow, I'm going to hit the nest rather early tonight, and hopefully, I won't fall asleep in school tomorrow.

    Oh, I almost forgot. You all should check out this web comic I found. It's called Ansem Retort. It's a sprite comic, but it's really funny. Check it out you won't regret it. http://www.ansemretort.org/ansemretort/index.html?comic=1

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? cheerful Auditory Accompaniment Leroy Jenkins (Fun times mix) - keatonkeaton999 tags: book, comic, sleep

    I don't know what's going on but I've been so tired lately. Ever since the weekend I've been tired. I didn't get much sleep then, but Monday and Tuesday night I got a fair amount of sleep. Maybe it's the heat, who knows? I'm gonna take tomorrow off and catch on some important things. I have an English paper to write that was due last Friday, I have a Chemistry lab report to finish, I have to mow my neighbor's lawn, and I have to catch up on sleep. Hopefully, after tomorrow, I won't be so tired.

I'm Where?!? Home And How Does That Make You Feel? tired Auditory Accompaniment Festival of the Goddess - David Arkenstone tags: sleep